laur31's Journal

I woke this morning feeling ok just wrecked tired and checked on my goldfish to see if he was ok , and to my horror he was dead, now i could have accepted it but he had been off for a while and i put him in a pot because he couldn t swim in the tank as he was floating sideways but in the shallow water he was fine, anyway i got medicine for his apparent bladder infection. I gave him some yesterday and had this nagging feeling i gave him to much and should clean out pot in case, but no i didn t because i thought i was just overreacting, but when i found him this morning the guilt i felt was unreal . I'd killed this little fish that i was trying to save. I cried so much i don t remember how i drove to work . I'm kicking myself . Why didn t i go with my gut feeling , i'm normally right when my gut tell's me somethings not right. So that was my gr8 day . Feck it anyway,i'm pissed off .