Journal

Got up and no anxiety but what a restless night , i couldn t sleep for ages , Anyway got to work and i'm looking around me and thinking god so many of these people bug me . its a call center so were all either looking at eachother or sitting beside eachother . Anyway the girl across the way from me puts on a posh accent on her calls and i think if i hear her say , that is no problem one more time i'll scream , then there's a guy next to me who ask's me questions , stupid questions like wat time did you start etc, eh i'm sitting next to you ,you idiot, did you not c me come in. Then the girl beside me which i get on well with can bug me too , like today i'm on a call and she throws  paper clips over my desk and give s me a dig in my arm messing with me . I told her 6 bottles of diet coke a day are bad news , she s bloody wired , and she's swinging around on her seat , christ no wonder i've anxiety .I always had  a laugh and clicked with people i worked wit before but this place is unreal. I miss the laughs i used to have , i used to work in a canteen an i really got on well with the girls , one girl and myself used to dance around the kitchen to music and just acting like idiots really , we all just took the piss out of eachother, but i'm stuck where i am now anyway til the recession ends and should be grateful i have a job but there s no craic (fun) i took 99 calls yesterday so the chances of talking to anyone around me are none existent. i dunno i just miss laughing an fooling round . it keeps me sane in this world an young i suppose. er i ll go to the beach tomorrow with my friend and the girls , my little dogs. one is lying on the sofa dead to the world an the other little fatty s fecked off to her bed, she goes out to get the best spot .her nickname s IT because she can be so horrible , to look at her from the back she s like a rhino,and she's always looking to have a fight with my other dog sophie, but i love her to death and their spoiled rotten,  i m trying not to get alarmed now but for last hr my heart is hurting me . it would really crap to have a heart attack tonite, i'm not able . oh wait it s easing off . why is it wen something like this hapens i want a ciggie wen there probably the cause of my heart hurting . Ahh wat a nice vent , i haven t had one in ages, feels good

Today i got up and was feeling small bit anxious bout work but went in anyway and the day went fast enough. All nice customers for a change. Anyway got paid today so that s good as it s only monthly i get paid . Off weds and Fri so i'm looking forward to that .