TristanKrauter's Journal

Okay, so, mom mike and I went to go pick up our glasses today. They don't come with good cases or lens cleaner or anything like that, so i asked mom if i could get some of that for my glasses, is that so wrong of me to ask? She said "do u have the money?" which of course i didnt so i shut up. Then sahe goes and asks mike if he wanted glasses and contact cases for his stuff and cleaning stuff for them, he said no, but i was pissed the whole day. why the hell would she treat her own fucking kid like trash but be so nice and kind to her husband that she knew for two months? my stuff was even cheaper! then i stormed out of the clinic, and we go to staples. I need stuff for school, so i ask her if we can get anything for it, she says "you dont just fucking get it do u u piece of shit? I just got fired, i cant afford anything formyself let alone you." but again she offers Mike something. The only reason why i want to stay here is cause theres a glbt support group here and a trans therapist and all my friends r up here. This isnt the first time this kind of bullshit has happened either, she does this shit all the time, and shes the reason why im suffering from clinical depression and shesd the reason why i attempt suicide all the time. She doesnt just do that crap either, she calls me faggot, dyke, cunt, whore, bitch and anything elze that can pop in her head at the time. She also tells me how worthless, useless, and stupid i am and how i care about no one but myself, which isnt true, its cause i dont give a shit about my self and only care about others thats part of my problem, if i even ask her for food, shell go off on a rant on how stupid i am, i ccant think about myself without getting my ass chewed for it! whats wrong with this picture? yesterday, i hadnt eaten anything for like two days cause i was busy hanging with my girlfriend who was staying over, and mom didnt even cook for us, and theres really only enough food for one person so i gave it to my gf, well, my gf leaves and i ask mom if theres anything for me to eat, she said, "no, ur fat ass and ur gfs fat ass ate everything!" people wonder why im suicidal, but really, is it wrong for me to not want to live with her anymore?

When i first went to live with my dad, mom would always call me up, tell me how evil i was and how she hated me because i left her and my little bro just like my step dad left them. She hates me, she treats my brother fine, but she hates me, and i dont know why...

is it wrong of me to leave her again and to live with my dad?