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adelheid 
4:51pm Tuesday
I went to see Richard today which is the last day of British Summer Time. The grass on the grave is lush and green and the roses I planted are suffering from the shortening hours of daylight. The leaves of the beautiful beech tree are starting to fall and look golden on the ground.
The harshness of the inexorable passing of time is difficult to cope with. Next year, the start of a new decade, will be without him and I can't even think how I will face all those days without him.
The tears have been flowing freely this week, as I start to realise that my wonderful husband will never come home again.
I would give everything I have for just one more day, one more chance to hold him close and tell him how much I love him.
My heart is aching and my mind numb with the pain of understanding that I can't have him back with me.
I love you Richard and I always will.
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Your words are so sad and painful, yet so true. You will get past the pain and the tears and again catch glimpses of the sun. It will fade behind the dark clouds but return again until you pass through the tunnel of grief one step at a time. I walked the path and it is hard, but you are strong and will survive. sharon
Shrn
After so many days I am opening all thse messages. I re read your entry now. YOu ae feeling like me. I want him to come back fr one days so that I could tell him that I love him I cared fr him valued his presence in my life. But how can we overcome this feeling the pain ? Till now I am unable. Love Mamata
mamata
A heartfelt and deeply sad journal but thoughts I can identify with so easily. This is such a difficult and painful journey and I do feel all we can do is take each day at a time and try not to think too much about the future. Today is hard enough. Your thoughts and feelings are perfectly natural. For me, after over 2 1/2 years, that raw pain has eased a bit and I hope that slowly it will for you also. My thoughts are with you.
pneylan