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Katt1970 
7:30pm Tuesday
So, he's out of jail and either he will or will not contact me. I dread the idea that he might. However, there are so many things I would LOVE to say to him...not kind things either. Regardless, worrying about that can not be my focus.
It's probably hormonal, but I've been feelling very down the last few days. My patience is almost nil with those around me. My boss and I got side ways yesterday...and I was in the wrong...and I knew it, but I didn't care. I still don't care. Sometimes I think people expect to much of me. We didn't agree on the particular situation and I didn't do it the way she thought I should have or told me to. I've not always been like that. Where the hell did that come from?
I feel so down and depressed. I went to bed at 8:15 last night. I don't want to talk to anyone or be around anyone. That can't be healthy. I cry at the drop of the hat. I don't have any particular reason, no more than usual anyway. I don't know what is going on with me.
Another thing...is the bills. I'm working full time and 1 day on weekends, but it doesn't seem to be enough, so now I'm sorting bills and trying to figure out what I can eliminate to make it until after the first of the year. Ugh!!!
Will life ever return to normal??
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Awww ... you know what? If you don't want to see anyone or talk to anyone, don't. Honour yourself and your real feelings right now. Cry if you feel like it ... I promise, the tears will stop eventually. You are doing well to figure out the bills before they get out of hand. Please be gentle with yourself -- you have been through Hell and his release has brought a new stress into your life. Don't beat yourself up for feeling unsociable -- give yourself a break, and please know that it won't feel like this forever. I promise.
ExMrsK
You're a little bit scared, a little bit on edge. Like me you probably hate waiting for the other shoe to drop. That's why you are doing the things you don't normally do. I've been there and know how it makes a person feel to know they are out of character. To wonder where all this crying and edginess is coming from.
Just accept yourself as you are now and some of that behavior will get better. You need some down time and to treat yourself well.
trisha9054
Hi Katt...I loved with depression for 1 year. Now I am on new meds and I feel a difference. I suggest seeing a Therapist just to have someone to talk to and help you sort things out. And meds REALLY do help with the depression and they work. Hugs.
ginebra
Agree with Gine...see a therapist and ask about meds. You don't have to take them forever just till you get over this hurdle. I hear you about the bills, my friend taught me a new way to pay bills. Gather all of your bills that are due at payday..throw them in the air. The ones that land face up you pay. lol..if only
Things will get better. You are divorced plus your body is on HIGH alert and this is just throwing you totally off. Hang in there. I will get better.
Great big hugs...
Dee
LavenderMoon
Katt you've come a long way, u r a very strong courageous woman & this is not gonna break u down. U wil pass this don worry. Hugs 2 u....
Ghabbir