ImJustAButterfly103's Journal

Well, just another day.  My classes start in a week and I'm super excited.  Had a pretty boring weekend, really don't have the money to go out and really do anything.  But sometimes it's nice to just sit home and catch up on "me" time.  I read alot, something I've always enjoyed doing.  I took my pup for a walk, and generally enjoyed my time.  But sometimes I still feel this cloud over me.  It's just so heavy sometimes.  But I guess that's to be expected.  All the things i'm trying to deal with now sometimes just get to be to much.  I feel very alone most days, and I can get caught up in that and it seems to really drag me down.  See, i've tried talking to everyone close to me about my feelings and problems, but no one seems to want to talk about it.  The only one I can rely on is my counselor, and I only see her once a week, sometimes less.  It's just hard to deal with things in my head when the feelings have no were to go.  Everything I've ever done and accomplished has been on my own, and granted, it's not much, but there are things I have done to make a better life for myself.  I haven't really counted on anyone for help.  At least I know I'm strong enough to make some changes, no matter how small they may be.