CheriS's Journal

Well the move is over... thank goodness!  Two exhausting days but its done and I am back in a city I lived in years ago, near my mom and best friend and am starting a new chapter in my life.  I didn't fall apart as much as I thought I would during the move... guess exhaustion helped to keep it at bay.  I'm trying as hard as I can to focus on the future... on getting the old ME back, but then again not just the old "me" but an even better one than before.  Hopefully I learned something from the past 8 years, and not just to not trust anyone.  I'm trying hard not to get into that mindset.

I've been exercising every day, and am working hard to find a job.  The job market here doesn't seem much better than the one I just left, but since I do know a few people in the area, I might be able to network a little which couldn't hurt...  Also trying to get in touch with some old friends who I haven't seen in 8-10 years.. would be nice for all of us to get together again.

Sometimes I get hit with a really deep wave of sadness when I let myself think about my stbx and the things he is doing with the tramp but then I have to force it out of my mind or I could just sit here and cry for hours.  That part of my life is over and a new part is beginning.  I have a few goals in mind, for the first time in a loooong time, so I have something to work towards.  Getting in shape, losing all this weight I gained, getting a good job that I can support myself with, getting a car, getting my own place so i'm not taking up room at my girlfriends or mom's.  I am truly starting over from scratch pretty much but i've done it before so I know I can do it again.