CheriS's Journal

I guess i'm not as well adjusted as I thought, the day started out ok, then the sadness and hurt just seemed to pile it's way on... by this evening I was sitting on my front porch crying my eyes out again over someone that doesn't deserve a single tear, trying to figure out why it hurts so much... How can I still care so deeply about someone who walked out on me the way he did, ripped my heart out, left me without a care in the world and hasn't looked back?  How can I care about someone that started seeing another woman before he decided to end our marriage?  Why do I let it eat at me that he is sharing his life and affection with somone else when that is all I ever craved from him for the past few years?  I never wanted a big fancy house, fancy car, jewelry... etc etc etc... the only thing I wanted was love and affection which he gave in droves in the beginning of our relationship... then dribbles... then nothing.