kathymom's Journal

Good morning,

I have never journaled before but have been encouraged to do so by my friends and therapist.

Woke up this moring in pain.  I try to wake up early enough to get pain meds in my system so I'm not chasing the pain all day, but I'm not sure I'll be too successful today.

I've been feeling sorry for myself lately as I'm frustrated and depressed.  I'm now 6 weeks out of surgery tos and still don't feel functional yet.  I feel out of control of my emotions, pain and functiality.  I want my life back before all of this hit. 

My house is in forclosure of which I''m doing all I can to save it.  I'm on the phone and filling ot paperwork constantly

I suffer from ptsd which was inflamed by an abusive and unrelenting boss who finally wore me down and I lost my job in Jan

I had tos surgery in May and still in pain...lots of meds

I'm working on SSDI paperwork, work comp paperwork, disability retirement paperwork and forclosure paperwork. 

I have no idea where the money will be coming from month to month (but I have to say, God has been gracious and mercyful to sustain me so far each month, praise God!)

I wish I had someone to assist me and take off some of the stress, I'm feeling quite alone and overwhelmed.

I saw my phsycologist yesteerday and he asked if he could call me daily again.  I think he's kinda worried about me.

My plans for today are to go over all the paperwork and make sure all is in good order and I haven't missed anything.

call my dr set up an appt to find out when I can begin PT and discuss possible surgery for carpell tunnel, which was actually worse than tos.

check the mail, pay bills, take trash to dump, cleaning the kitchen and making spaghetti sauce for dinner

research for a printer

call my brother

call my pastor

and pray, pray pray

We'll see just how much I actually get done.

I think this is how to journal, I'm new at this.