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i hate my self!!!!!! i've cut myself so mant times since i started coming to this place. my great grandma dieing didn't help and not haveing trevor here didn't help ether. i hate myself so much. i should be dead. whats wrong with me!!!!!!!!!!

Hey Everyone~

i had a dream last night that trevor broke up with me because he thought that he was holding me back and i woke up crying. then when i went back to sleep i had another dream that he had forgoten all about me. what if all that really happens to me. what if he really does leave me????? i am soooooo worried. but that is not the only reason i'm worried. this girl wrote me on facebook. she said that he broke up with her because he was leaving and that when he came back that they could be together. what if he leaves me for her!!!!!!???? what if he keeps his word to her!!!??? i don't want to lose him!!!! what am i going to do???? what am i supost to think!!! I"M AFRAID TO LOSE HIM!!!!!

Hey everyone~

i am haveing the worse day ever. my boy friend left for the marines yesterday. and now i can't stop crying about it. i feel like everything that was good in my life is gone and that i will never get it back. my mind is going crazy. i have that feeling to just say fuck it and kill myself. i didn't want to feel like this ever again and now it's back i don't know what i am going to do!!!!

I HATE MY LIFE!!!!!!!

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