boydka's Journal

I have noticed lately that I am really identified with my emotions and that I let this feed off of itself and in essense become me, when that is really not the true me at all. Anger is quick to bubble up inside me, knee jerk reactions before I even realize are the norm, over zealous thoughts about something, being extremely judgemental of others when I have no right to be, thie list goes on and on.......having to be right( thats a big one)

I am constantly milling about the past, wading in happy memories and wallowing in not so happy ones, or I am worrying about the future, or thinking anticipating what the future events with hold.

But it really is all an illusion.

All I have is right now. As I write this. This is my life. The past is gone, the future is unknown.

Why is so hard to live in the present moment?

I've caught glimpses of it and I feel awesomely alive and free.

Free from the bonds on ego, time, problems and just in love with the world and my chance at being a part of it.

I am just amazed at how beautiful life really can be if we stop dwelling or planning and just 

LIVE LIFE.

n o w.