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Enterpryse 
Days are running past me very quickly; is it my age? My children are growing, but I am not! Of course this is normal but recently it feels as everything is moving in the fast lane. It must be my recent employment combined with the "regular". Have had some issues with colleagues; sometimes it feels like people want to use me, over and over, forever asking for help, as if I didn't need any. I seldom ask for favours and I always make sure that I exchange kindness. I listen to people when they talk without interrupting; well this is what my new "friends" have been like, is it better to go alone or in bad company? Well this conundrum has resolved itself as I have started unconsciously to keep my distance. Am I happy? Surely not, but feeling safe within my boundaries, Yes! Do I miss them? No! I keep my distance but exchange a word or two before moving on to somebody more polite and considerate. And that is that!
Finally a little time to myself. Have been overburdened recently with Uni; new friends; good friends; bad friends; people who just want to use me, and nowhere man. Yes at my age and marital status (quite settled actually) this peer at uni keeps chasing me up. He is roughly my age and he tells me that he is looking for a wife. He doesn't seem to wash himself, nor his clothes, yet he gives himself permission to ask personal questions and sounds like he is trying to find fault in my marriage. Keeps stalking me around the campuses, sadly he has access to my whereabouts as he is in my course too. It's both frustrating and insulting. One of these days I am going to throw a shoe at him! Oh yes, and he repeats my answers at "feedback time"..Grrrrr.....
....Ghastly Au Pair is leaving at last; had made life difficult and filled it up with porky pies; how uncouth!
This weekend: free at last......but need help from a proper au pair. Help!!!!!!!
Have been working around the clock. Reawakened long lost friendship with adorable hubby. Things are getting better and better but it is hard work. Feeling exhausted but satisfied. Feel like have worked too hard to let anything spoil. Still have lots of energy left. Adrenaline in my veins never stops flowing. Tiredness doesn't get in my way, I still keep going. Had nearly forgotten what life really is. The seasons keep rotating and so do my feelings. Am at my highest at the moment and in tune with the current London's warm climate. Am aware this will change some day. Will feed off this current state of hight when things will begin to tumble again
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