claire36's Journal

wot is the truth

even i dont know

i know my head is goin funny

i know i feel weird

wot is weird

define fine

i know im not fine

i know im not on ma pity pot

i know i am allowe to feel

might not like where my feeling s take me

but its not good at all to look in the mirror and not recognise your face

outside on your own its such a scary place

the answers are all inside of me

all i got to do is beleive

to beleive is to be true to yourself

to be honest with yourself

well can i be absolutly honest with mysel

ye

i dont feel very good and not sure why

my head is takin me somewhere and im not 100percent sure where

i know one thing

ive never had such a long time of bein mentally stable

and tbh i dont actually feel ver mentally stable atm

my sh thoughts are gettn out of control

at least they are thoughts

and not actions

yes i have sh twice jus recently

but that is all

i know one ting

i do not want a drink

so that is good

i cant live my life on what ifs

what if

simple as really

i cant hand over this shit in ma head

its not a simple as that

i dont feel at peace

not sure why

i feel very very estless

and i think if one more person says to me

oh claire you are doing really realy well

im gonna scream at them fxxk off

simple as

the voices in ma head are strong

bu they are very jumbled and i cant make out what exactly thety are saying

all i know is i dont feel right

abd that scare me

simple as

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