claire36's Journal

been to cannock tonight with my sponser for an aa meeting

it was ok. i reall enjoyed my sponsers main share tho

that was very good and an insperation to me

my sponser is an insperation to me she is a very strong lady who does have her faults heck we are all only human afterall.

been reading over the few entries ive made on here and have decided to try and keep my journel ongoing if i remmemebr that is

where am i at

hhmmm dont know where to start

5 mths 5 days sober

that is a fact

and it is a good fact. a very posotive fact

and it hasnt been easy

had some shite thrown at me well some more than that but have not drank on it

havent wanted to so that is good

the help of my programme works for me

done my step 3 a couple of weeks ago. that was really liberating, feel more so free for doing it

not sure when im doing my step 4. hhm should be intersting when i get to it.

let me see . made a fearless and searching moral inventory of yourself.

hmmm should be interesting i say.

ill let ya all know how it goes shall i. mind u its a good reminder to me to read thru this again.

 i seriously would reccomend 'aa' to anyone who is struggling to stay sober

and its not jus about going to meetings.

get yourself a sponser. someone who you can trust or if you are like me learn how to trust.

get yourself working the steps of 'aa'

honestly when i did my step 3 it was like overwhelming and beautiful at the same time

i had such inner peace inside of me

and jus bt handing my will and life over to the care of my 'something' it is jus that simple and makes my day to day life so much more uncomplicated.

yes i still have like i say a lot of shite thrown at me but i get thru it with help from my friends

like minded people like me who know exactly wtf im on about as they too suffer from the same illness as me.

and yes it is an illnes and their is a cure for it

only if you want the cure. you really have to be broken to depth to want the cure so badly

and for me in my opinion it is a cure. rememebr that is just my opinon tho ok.

im waffling on atm so ill finish right their

this journel is for my benefit so i can see how im doing over the days so if anything in this you do not like rememeber it is all jus my opinion doesnt have to be yours

keep it simple just for today