irishdreams's Journal

This is the sixth day my bf has been in jail.  Its the longest we have been apart in the 2 years we have been together. I am not handling it too well.  I am starting to feel guilty for putting him there....he smokes and drinks a little more than half a fifth of Jack a night so he would have had to stop both cold turkey when he was sent to jail.  He would suffer greatly and have severe withdraws.  He also cant handle silence or have nothing to do (always kept himself busy)...he will be suffering a lot....I cant stand to be away from him and I cant live with him...Im so distraught...so sick...I cant get through this....I have had a drink of jack in my hand all waking hours of the day and night since he has gone....the emotional pain in my heart is like a dark black cancer and its completely consuming me.