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MicheleHR 
I am on my way with my mom to my dads business. There is so much cleaning up that has to be done. I am surpirsed at the strength of my mother but then again not really because I think that God has been preparing her for this time. She has always taken care of my dad so we all thought that when he passed she would be lost. But actually it has been the complete opposite. She is grieving but in her own way and she is taking the reigns as the head of her household. I have never lost a mate but I pray if I do, that God gives me the strength that my mother has. Mine comes in small doses throughout the day....in the spirtural mindset I am so thankful that God had mercy on my father and brought him out of his pain but in the natural eye, I want to be selfish and have a mild tanturm like my 2 year old and have him here for fathers day.
We have decided as a family to go to my dads grave site for fathers day..It has been alittle over 2 weeks since we buried him.....man I miss him...
Happy Papas Day
Daddy
It is still a straight line face for me /:
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So out of nowhere here comes the rain...without warning or anything..Today has been ok..not bad or good just ok...my 8yr old asked me today how was I feeling..I said straight faced..not a smile not a frown just a straight face.
Next week is vbs for the kids and it seems so strange at times unfair for life to go on without my dad..I know that it is crazy but at times it seems like he is missing so much and I want to wait until he comes home to do whatever activity it is...funny thing though..he is not coming home..since I am the 2nd to the youngest in a family of 5 girls we traveled alot because of the military and at times it feels like he is overseas...): I know the reality of it but at times it just seems so wierd going on without my daddy.
Wow..Im reading what I posted and I sound like a litle girl watching and waiting for daddy to ome home instead of a 34 yr old with a family of her own..
The only comfort that I have is knowing that my daddy is not hurting anymore..he is not hurting anymore..
okay..so it is bad enough to be grieving..bt what gets me is that the world around me is not..I know it sounds crazy but..I just want to say..ok world stop!! I know that it wont of course but anyway..wishful thinking..I guess
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*HUGS* It sucks when everything around you is moving on when you feel stuck in one spot....always here if u need someone to talk too.
*HUGS* ur going to be in my thoughts on fathers day hun, take care. us first timers will get through this.
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