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Gesoma 
1:22am, August 4, 2009
What i say and how you react to it are like night and day.
like if I said I think we should take "In God we Trust" off all our money, I'll bet i will upset the majority of you reading this. I think if I said lets replace it with something else you may or may
not agree with me, but I think the new way makes the statement a bit stronger.
"WE Trust In God". we all say things and write things that others may or may not understand the same way we do. even though we may see things differently , you would think God is something we all agree on. Religion and Politics are two taboo subjects.
You always bound to cause an argument over one of them.
Another example of this point Im trying to make, my last entry was titled "what can I do?'
this was a question I was trying to find the answers to.
"what I can do!" is a statement about what im doing or what Im about to do.
What can I do?- can I heal all the sick people here at DS? NO
can I make all the pain go away?- NO
Can I stop the anger and hurt?- NO
can I stop the fighting?- NO (Ive tryed that )
What I can Do is Pray to God to ease your pain, your suffering, your anger.
I bow my head right now and Pray for all of you.
Lord is Jesus name I pray, Please answer our prayers, there are many here who need your love, your touch to heal, your wisdom for quidence,and your voice to talk to them because they have not heard your name.
Lord Im not asking for anything for myself,
Lord you are #1
other people are #2
and I am 3rd
when the house is quiet and my daughter is at school I think about all the things Ive done, things I need to do, and all the things I should have done.
when my mind starts thinking of all this all I can do is crank up the music and try to drowned out my thoughts, sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesnt.
Like right now Im running on 5 hrs of sleep, Im tired , depressed, and I have no energy.
staring at my monitor, I look at all the support groups Im in. Pancreantitis,Bipolar disorder,Insomnia, PTSD, Breavement, Pancreatic Cancer, and Single Parents.
it seems I hardly have time for any of these groups.I think 90% of my day is here Keeping Vivian company. I guess this explains why my mind cant think right now.
I just read an odd fact- our eyes are the same size from birth.
now Im getting side tracked.the eyes are the same size- like our sole its size never changes
but our hearts- love-God grows
our brain- thoughts-faith-grows
and our body- they all grow.
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Really help someone and ppl ask them to stop, I saw your hug and know wally put you up to it. Pls dont do this. If he wants to join fine but dont make a mockery of it. I thought I was doing him and vivian a favor I was only trying to help. Now I am just trying to get along. God bless you and yours~~Debbie
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I put no one up to anything. I do not need a group to say a prayer. Neither do I brook hard feelings. I asked NO ONE to restart the group (show me where I did?). And Ben, my brother, I saw NOTHING in your writings that was not straight from the mouth of The Lord. I am your brother. Wally
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My dear bubba I know you only write what God tells you to..You continue to do what you do best..and know you are loved by me..Viv
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Bubba I love you for all you do and feel bad for how little I do for you now..It was never suppose to be like this..I wish I could fix this all for you..and not of added to your depression..I know I do..Please know when you need to do other things it is alright..I understand..I do love you and want only for you to be happy..If I could give you one thing it would be happiness...you got my love..Vivian
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i want to give ya a big hug and hope all well for you ... huggs ang
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Dearest Ben,
I understand where you are at. If I didn't have my special needs students to keep my brain going I would be so depressed.I sleep only 4-6 hours a night mostly 5. I would much rather spend all my days helping others but when I have alone time my brain is continually thinking about what I should do and I drowned it out with other helping people tasks. I stare at my monitor too and sometimes feel paralyzed in the moment and seriously sad. You are a good person and quite a GREAT friend too!
I am going through some serious PTSD therapy which is helping me understand why I am the way I am. My belief system is affecting what is happening also. I spend so much time keeping the door locked on the closet that contains all the skeletons that haunt me on a daily basis.This wears me out but I am determined in time to clean the closet so I won't have to put a lock on it anymore. I have to do some adjustments on my belief system in order to free myself from the chains that bind me. I too get sidetracked so I am in your club..Take Good Care of YOu, OK, Blessings, Marie
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