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wounded1990 
8:08am, September 6, 2009
I am starting a new diet... I am going to eat one day, skip the next day, and go back an forth... I am trying to trick my body... I just can't keep doing this...
I hate the way I look... I WILL reach my goal before my band getts signed... All I need is for the talent scout to say "You all did great, but she's too fucking FAT." Because a record label is going to be involved, plus playing for congress, no one wants to see a bubble as a lead vocalist...
GAH!!!!!! I hate this!!!! I need to come up with a lie for the scars... maybe "I was on a motocycle and got thrown off in to a field or thorny roses"???? IDK what to do... Oh well... I HAVE to get it together... I can't cut anymore... If I am going to be on stage, people can't see the scars... The LAST thing I want to do is trigger people...
FUCK MY LIFE!!!!
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if the scars are mentioned say you where in a car accident and got thrown through the window. i honestly dont think anyone is going to say "you all did great but she too fucking fat." people who look at you don't see you as fat at all.
please please take care of yourself. ilu
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