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mikeyseesincolor 
9:41am, October 20, 2009
What am i going to do about myself...i try so hard to get things out of the way, but i just can't seem to do it...especially when it comes to talking about my problems...even as i write my journal, it hurts deep inside...i know that others would try to comfort me, but it just won't help...as i look back to those days when i was never harrassed and just constantly having fun brings a painful smile to my face...why can't thing get back to the way things were supposed to be???what am i doing wrong that i have to suffer so much for so little happiness...deep down i want to try and find out but my concience is telling me to just let it go...my life is hard as it is and i don't need anymore complications in it...
Everything in my life is still as depressing as usuual and i really hate my life right now...everytime I'm alone i seem to break into tears and feel like i never want to see the light of day again...I don't even want to celebrate my birthday because i know for a fact that it will end up a nightmare...i just weant everything to be okay, but i have no say about that...I have nothing to live for...i am in a state of pain and suffering...my emotions are overun by my rage and sorrow...i can't keep living like this...i called to god and he didn't answer...i asked the spirits, but they will not listen...i have even called upon my family and all they tell me is that everything is okay...but how can they say that when i am in so much pain that i can hardly bare it anymore...i need someone to help me with my pain and anguish...my suffering is hurting me and i can't stop it...Past Entries
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Saturday, 6/20
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Thursday, 6/18
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Wednesday, 6/17
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Wednesday, 6/17
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Tuesday, 6/16
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Monday, 6/15
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Monday, 6/15
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Sunday, 6/14
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