i dunno
I've been working out since jan 1st and i've lost 6 pounds up to this date i guess it's good like 2 pounds …
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MillieH 
10:16am Yesterday
There are some things you just do on autopilot, and being at home, that is one of those. I almost felt like living on my own the past weeks were just a dream, that my life down here was not real, that I still lived at home in a carefree way. And knowing that I have acutally moved out, that I am, in most aspects, a grown up, is very scary and kind of depressing.
I flew home this time, and the whole way home I was thinking about SIing. I don't want to do it, but the urge today is just so much stronger than it has been the past three weeks...
I am still overwhelmed at school, it is SO much I have to get done, and I have no dicipline to work. It is going very slow, and I don't have time for that. I am kind of wallowing, and feeling mutely depressed and lonely, at the same time as I am content and okay, kind of...
I don't know, this entry is just hopelesss...
UPDATED GOALS
Feel better about myself
Progress 25%
Current Weight (KGs)
110
Days without SI'ing (Days)
24
Encouragements: 0
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Hey hun, no entry is hopeless. Everything you write is good because it allows you to get out how you feel, rather than letting your feelings bottle up.
Things at school will take a few weeks but once you have settled into the routine i'm sure things will become easier.
Right now though you'll be feeling all over the place because of your visit home. It is the first time you've been back since you left for school so its no wonder you feel so emotional.
Keep talking to us, especially those who have just started school and are in the same situation as you are.
**HUGS**, we're all here for you.
Stay strong and SI free if you can xx
trulymadlydeeply
-hugs- hugs- hugs-
if your nopt feeling motivated to work at home, try draggng your self to the libarary or a study corner on campus. last year when i was down thats what i ound helped me get enough work done to pass atleast. when i was home i woudl avoid it, but when i stayed on campus i could make my self focus a lil bit.
try to stay strong -hugs-
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