I don't know who I am, but I am me nonetheless. I am my own kind, stubborn, fun, moody, closed, seeking, adventurous, stragetic, mean-joking and a mastermind in malking up evil plots. I have my good and my bad days, and I am an eternal realisitc-pessimst. "It's sweet I have not lost the ability to surprise you"
I don't know who I am, but I am me nonetheless. I am my own kind, stubborn, fun, moody, closed, seeking, adventurous, stragetic, mean-joking and a mastermind in malking up evil plots. I have my good and my bad days, and I am an eternal realisitc-pessimst. "It's sweet I have not lost the ability to surprise you"
I love to read, I love to write, and I am an obsessed TV-watcher and movie-seer "Reading a book is jut like watching a really long movie, with better characters" - Millie
I love to read, I love to write, and I am an obsessed TV-watcher and movie-seer "Reading a book is jut
6 hugs given, 5 hugs received, 1 journal comment, 1 journal post
MillieH wrote a journal entry: 1-2-3 I'm sick 9:08am
I wasn't feeling too well on sunday. I ignored it like I usually do. I took some asprin, but I was…
MillieH changed their mood to Bad 8:48am
MillieH updated their status 8:48am
Had to go home today beacuse I wasn't feeling well... :…
November 10, 2009 9:08am
I wasn't feeling too well on sunday. I ignored it like I usually do. I took some asprin, but I was antsy under my skin. Kinda feverish-feeling. …
November 5, 2009 5:03pm
Today was a good day. Last night I managed to do ALL the dishes, becuse I just go tired of looking at it, so now my enitre table is filled with clean …
November 2, 2009 4:25pm
I don't know how much more I can take.
All I want to do is hide inside my little, stuffed and flowing flat, and never have to come out for anyone. …
Here's a super special totally awesome hug! **HUGS!!!** :) hope it makes you feel better....
Hey hun, thanks for the hug and the choccie. Dont you worry about those dishes, just do little bits of them when you can, and if I manage to invent a device that does them by magic, I'll send you one :-)
That's good. :) thanks for the well-wishes. Hope you have a good day too! And yeah, I have an odd way of wording things. :) thank you for the journal comments I'll respond when I get to my laptop.
I'm wonderfully trapped in the small bubble of infatuation. :)....and pissed at my dad. you?
That's exactly what I needed to see. thanks bud :D
Progress
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I started SI when I was 15, and have been doing it for the majority of the last 4years.
My mother "burnt out" when I was 14, and the time she was ill, I grew astranged from her and the most of my family, and finally depressed. I have never talked or vented my feelings to my family, because of the mental astrangement to them.
I have always been chubby. And I have worked very hard for the past years to try to live a more healthy life. However, something always prevents my success, either it be me, or my over-weight parents and thier eating habits.
Okay, so I might just have seen too many scary movies, and have a little over creative fantasy, but I feel paranoid. I am constanly looking around, and seeing things that could happen... Often at night, or when I am alone or alone in a crowd.
I am alone, all the time, even when I am around others. It is hard anf faboulus, but mostly just...lonely...
Food controlls my life. I either over-eat or I starve myself. It is weakening both my physical and mental health...
I am startin University, and I am stressed and panicked...
I have struggled with weight all my life, and I am tired of it...
Well, I have had "tennis elbow" on both hands and in right wrist for a few years, and it is not getting any better...
My brother and most of me dad's family have this, and I am starting to think I have it too...
I can't handle stress, or pressure over a longer time. It is affecting my life in most aspects...
