A short introduction into the life of Millie (me). I am not the kind that takes pleasure out of others' happiness. I am the one that sulks when others cheer. I don't mean to be mean all the time, but I am good at pointing out what others want to forget about, I am rude and obnoxious and lie about almost everything. I am social awkward and don't make friends. I am not friendless amazingly enough, but have not had a best friend since I was 8 and moved. I am with people there and then and never again until then. I hate to talk about myself and tend to lie or change the subject. I am funny, and smart and nice if you hang around long enough. I alienate everyone because then I won't feel guilty for disappointing them, and I over analyze everything and everyone. I don't talk much, or about anything important, and I am content enough in my little bubble of false-reality, awaiting it to burst at any time. I am me, and I won't let others change or shape me. Take it or leave it. That is who I am.
A short introduction into the life of Millie (me). I am not the kind that takes pleasure out of others' happiness. I am the one that sulks when others cheer. I don't mean to be mean all the time, but I am good at pointing out what others want to forget about, I am rude and obnoxious and lie about almost everything. I am social awkward and don't make friends. I am not friendless amazingly enough, but have not had a best friend since I was 8 and moved. I am with people there and then and never again
I love to read, I love to write, and I am an obsessed TV-watcher and movie-seer. "Reading a book is jut like watching a really long movie, with better characters" http://writedrunk.blogspot.com/
I love to read, I love to write, and I am an obsessed TV-watcher and movie-seer. "Reading a book is jut
9 hugs received, 7 hugs given, 3 journal posts, 2 journal comments, 1 discussion post
MillieH updated their status 5:06pm
Making dinner at 11pm.... lol...…
MillieH wrote a discussion post in the Depression - Teen support group: Alcohol 2:25pm
I was wondering. if you drink (alcohol), do you feel better? Happier? or do you have to get wasted to…
MillieH changed their mood to Good 4:27pm
MillieH gave coolkidrthomas a hug 7:40pm
i saw you had written in nowegian :P though you 'Ø 'was missing :P not too easy with the Æ, Ø ,Å,…
MillieH changed their mood to OK 7:37pm
November 15, 2009 7:51am
This has by far been one of the worst weeks in history. 1) I got a parking ticket, which though I am finished with, it still brings the week down. 2) …
November 12, 2009 4:50pm
It was a looong day today. It never seemed to end.
It staarted with me and the girl in my group went to the university to interview a lot of girls …
November 11, 2009 2:50pm
Firstly; I am a lot better today. like my status say, my cough is killing me (in every sense of the word)!!!!
I was watching LA Ink, and of …
November 10, 2009 9:08am
I wasn't feeling too well on sunday. I ignored it like I usually do. I took some asprin, but I was antsy under my skin. Kinda feverish-feeling. …
I have absolutely no clue what you're talking about with the letters. I just used a translator. oh well, :p. I hope all is ok, or at least settling down a bit. **hugs**
your reason to go on: because you're gonna be an awesome person one day! because you owe it to yourself to, I'm sure DS buddies will agree. You've been a really good friend, and given me hugs exactly when I needed them the most. And who am I going to tell all of my England adeventures to if you're gone?? I love you, buddy, never forget. I'm rooting for you, you can do this, WE can do this. xx **biggest hugs ever**
:D. It's in Lancaster. I'm excited. I hope you feel better.
Ur welcome hun. I hope all is well and that ur having a nice week so far! Let me know anytime u wanna talk! Love n hugs xxx
Here is a hug from me, how are you feeling?
Progress
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I started SI when I was 15, and have been doing it for the majority of the last 4years.
My mother "burnt out" when I was 14, and the time she was ill, I grew astranged from her and the most of my family, and finally depressed. I have never talked or vented my feelings to my family, because of the mental astrangement to them.
I have always been chubby. And I have worked very hard for the past years to try to live a more healthy life. However, something always prevents my success, either it be me, or my over-weight parents and thier eating habits.
Okay, so I might just have seen too many scary movies, and have a little over creative fantasy, but I feel paranoid. I am constanly looking around, and seeing things that could happen... Often at night, or when I am alone or alone in a crowd.
I am alone, all the time, even when I am around others. It is hard anf faboulus, but mostly just...lonely...
Food controlls my life. I either over-eat or I starve myself. It is weakening both my physical and mental health...
I am startin University, and I am stressed and panicked...
I have struggled with weight all my life, and I am tired of it...
Well, I have had "tennis elbow" on both hands and in right wrist for a few years, and it is not getting any better...
My brother and most of me dad's family have this, and I am starting to think I have it too...
I can't handle stress, or pressure over a longer time. It is affecting my life in most aspects...
