TroubledAngel's Journal

We figured it out, the reason for my silence. The reason I hide in the shadows of loneliness and fake a smile. Now you know my friend, that thing that haunts and creeps under my ivory skin. Why the sudden reverie and loss of hope. Why the lies and exaggerations of my thoughts. Why I can't be touched, why I do not open to others. I hide, yes I hide and oh what a reason I have! Now we know my friend, how the innocence was taken away and the scars remained, invisible to the naked eye. I am mute on the out but in the core I scream, I beg, I bleed. How many things have been taken away, what they took away. That can never be recovered, so now you know. I was afraid to tell, to expose my dark tale. It was all kept inside and it was forgotten for a while. Then it came back like a dagger digging inside my soul, deeper, piercing my joy, deeper, leaving me helpless, deeper, and dead in the floor. I could not reach for someone, the truth was much repugnant. I hated myself. It just killed me more. But now you know. We all have problems, yes, but never solutions nor reasons for those. The only thing that remains is the damage. BUT, we found the reason, oh lo and behold! What a good one it is. So now you know...now I know.