mstayinstrong's Journal

Looking for a day without frustration, sadness... moods

Wondering if this will always be.

Moments of empowerment, moments of fear

Tired of trying to explain the ups and downs ... "no not cured yet, no still can't remember, yes, I've heard of that remedy, that cure"

I'm Known to always be upbeat, cheery and always loking for positive,  so who is this new person I am? Is it me or that thing that disguises me?

Have to keep my head high for my 2 kids with lyme... not too hovering but always alert, how to get that balance anyway?

Oh, but the good can come. A day walking on the beach and really seing the beauty, a day watching my son run with his kite, my daughter not holding her head at breakfast.

The good is there, it is. Its worth a peak.. even through the herx, even through the fog, even through the gurgling stomach... its worth a peak until that day comes when the peak turns into a gaze  with love for hear and now.

Thanks to this group for giving me a place when times are brutal or not.. just to be here and understood.