Journal

I have been sober for twelve months now.  Every aspect of my life has changed.  Although my sobriety was going well in Houston from the time I quit April 17, 2007, I still moved to Las Vegas in June.  I made certain not to end up with the same crowd as Houston.  Although I still provide as much encouragement as I can to those I left behind, I myself do not face the same daily battles.  I left las Vegas to Nampa Idaho for a minute and have landed in Monterey, CA.  I am working, enjoying it and forfilling the potential within me I could only see with my eyes open.  If you take a deep breath, you'll find you can swim your way to shores with fresh air and happiness.  Overcoming an addiction is difficult during the weakest state of it, but it is still a choice you make.  If you truly seek sobriety, make the choice and believe every day sober is better because you are sober.  You will find the days do get better, and no good day high every compares to a bad day sober.  Hold on to your memories, dont regret them.  They make you who you are and more appreciative of who you've become with what you had to go through to get there.

I have been sober since April.  I guess thats not six months like I keep thinking but the time past is never taken for granted.  Such a desire to quit and God have given me the strength to do so.  I have not slipped and have no desire.  I am so proud, happy and grateful.  I only hope I can share it.

I have a problem because I dont want to use meth but keep doing it. Its a fight I dont know how to defend myself in. Life is like walking on a tight rope . Nothing to hold on to and could fall at any moment. Trying to maintain so I dont lose everything is overwhelming. Letting go of that I already lost, is heartbreaking. I want to know there is hope for tomorrow.