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raesunshine 
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My sign in name should read frustrated in Canada. I have not been on line (bad) and not been a happy camper. I had a pyogenic granuloma removed from my hand which got infected and I cannot seem to shake the infection. Today the doctor refilled my antibiotics once more and I get so sick to my stomach from them. I have been occasionally puking and drinking massive amounts of Canada Dry Ginger Ale. This stuff is actually made from Ginger and it works. But - calories calories. With eating at most 900 calories a day but another 500 of ginger ale I have put on a few pounds. I know the eating because I keep a diary on it. The hand has healed so I can slowly type 2 handed but I can see tonight it is swelling again. I should guess I have a hard time getting rid of infection because I am not myself yet after my nephrectomy.
I have made a goal for tomorrow to see a counsellor. Things are not going well mentally and I am tired of waiting for the one I am supposed to be referred to. I am going to see if I can get into the government funding for it, the non funded are $200 per hour now! Yikes. Part of the reason I am searching for a counselor is to see if my feelings are valid or not. And to see if there can be a life improvement. I had a big going on with my family before the cancer and it is still bugging me. In a way they have withdrawed from me and I am awfully lonely. One thing I have been doing is losing weight from nausea but that is right now off too. I am so darned frustrated. Do you think it is normal to give one's sister a birthday gift via my mother visiting her (she lives 3 hours away) and not have had a response 2 weeks later?
I guess I need this counsellor bad - I will be lucky to see an intake person this week and then see the counsellor in a couple of weeks. But that is my short term goal. And the next goal is to see my family doctor when he is off holidays and see if he can treat my hand some other way.
Sorry for the whininess, I needed to get this out.
Rae
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Hello Rae, you are not whining at all. I had awful nausea, post surgery pain, Dx after NSS for Diabetes, the nausea for a long time, bad family and divorce issues, etc, long story to short, counseling is saving my sanity and I just had AML. I eil stay in study of prayer for you. You are going thru more than me, am glad you are venting! That is healthy!!! Hope that hand will heal soon, no need to reply, go rest it! :-) Love, Hunter
LoneWolfe
Thanks Hunter - diabetes and AML?? Huge hugs ((((((((((((Hunter))))))))))) going your way.
The funny thing for me is Ginger Ale helps the nausea but I wake up hours later with more nausea so it is on going.
Take care girl - be well
raesunshine