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heylady 
I don't visit daily strength nearly as much as I used to. But while I'm here, it wouldn't hurt to update my journal on various topics...
My food intolerances: They're under control for the most part. Over the past 2 years I've learned what my body will, or will not tolerate. The list of can't-have's is so much longer than I would have ever imagined, but when I eliminate those things from my diet, my quality of life improves greatly. I attempted to re-introduce a few foods into my meal plan somewhat recently, and the result was nothing short of a nuclear war in my stomach. It was horrible. Much worse than I anticipated. Which just reminded me, that when my body says no, it means no.
My relationship: My husband has treated me poorly in the past. I've suffered from unbelievable mental abuse, and sacrificed everything that I once had for my marriage and family. Finally my husband realized that he was taking all of his work anger out on me, and had underlying issues that needed to be handled. Hes now on anti depressants, and enrolled in an anger management class. Things are slowly getting better, and my trust is coming back. I try not to believe in divorce. I say try not to, because I know that for some people, with certain circumstances, there is no other option. I think that for me, a divorce would be giving up. I understand that my husband has a difficult job. Even though he has yet to go overseas, he does have a lot hanging over his head every day. Thats not an excuse to treat his family the way he has, but it does make me think twice when I'm in my calm state of mind. I'm going to stick it out. We won't always be stuck in the middle of nowhere 100 degrees everyday Texas. He won't always be on the lower end of the totem pole. And maybe someday he'll realize what a gold mine he has, and treat us the way we deserve. I'd like to think that hes well on his way.
My pregnancy: I feel, like crap. I'm so exhausted. My breasts are so sore that I wake up when I roll over at night, because the pain is so bad. I can't get comfortable at night in my bed, I find it easier to sleep on the couch while my daughter is watching cartoons in the morning. Which then makes me feel like a slacker mom, but she doesn't seem to mind, so maybe I'm feeling guilty for no reason. We've had our first ultrasound, and the baby had a strong heartbeat, and danced like a happy fish. The doctor has already told me that theres no way I'll deliver naturally, so we're expecting to have a planned c-section sometime in December. I'm having a hard time smelling food, so Christopher has been doing all of the cooking, which I'm very grateful for. And, making me delicious pink lemonade from scratch. I've lost a few pounds because of my morning sickness, but if this pregnancy is anything like my last one, I'll pack on the weight in my last trimester, and spend the next 2 years trying to get rid of it, right in time for me to get pregnant again. Ugh. And even though I sound like nothing but a negative Nancy, really, I'm so happy to be pregnant, and I thank god every time I remember to.
