Buradi's Journal

I'm sick again.  I'm having a lot of diarrhea and it's gotten horrible.  The last time, I was in the bathroom for half an hour just trying to keep from throwing up or passing out.  I tend to overheat when I have really bad diarrhea.  And sometimes the PAIN that I have in my stomach makes me just want to DIE!  I used to pray for death when I had the horrible pain.  But, God wouldn't take me.  Now, I know why.  My boyfriend needs me as much as I need him.  I needed to live to be there for him.  And to know what it's like to be truly loved.  Now, I don't pray for death.  Now, I just think of all the things I need to live for and hold my stomach and clench my teeth and ride out the pain.  I think I have a hemerrhoid.