my first shopping with a budget
June 7, 2009 11:37pm
i am please to say that i did the food shopping yesterday and i think i did fairly well.... it was very hard not to pick up the things i would like …
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sinann 
11:48pm, June 4, 2009
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About Me
sinann
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About Me
everyone is being open here so here is my story... my mother left my father when i was aprox 2 yrs... she went straight to another man had a baby and got married... he started to abuse me when i was about 4, i would be subjected to porn... adn told to keep the usual secret... when i started primary school i had a best friend and eventually around 7-8 and having sleep overs he asked me to practice with her ... about 9 years old they divorced and we moved to another state... he tryed to get custody of us luckily he did not success.. my mother was finding it hard to cope and sent my brother and i to our nanas to live... here the abuse started again until i turned to him and said... NO... he did not try again after that .. but as you can imagine that wreaked havoc with my mind... was i the cause if the abuse... was it me who wanted it... i was mess. and still dealing with my mothers rejection... she eventually came back to claim her children adn we moved again... this time she met a different man and had settled with him... we moved to another country adn i was able for the first time discuss the things that had happened to me... my step father made it worse by telling my mother adn the consquence for that was a torturus 2 hour film about rape adn molestation... i shrunk back into my hole... and started to pull my hair out... adn occassionally cut... i started smoking and drinking... then we moved yet again... the trouble i was having finding any friends adn let alone the time to trust them.... i started stealing and sneaking out... by 15 yrs we moved back to my country of origin and i had to start having visitations with the man who abused me... i thought i was strong enough to block it out and i was friendly to him... i never let him be alone with me though... it did not work as i thought... i am still dealing with what this B*&^%^&D did to me... and everyday i find little things that i have been doing to deal with this emotional hurt and worthless ness...
everyone is being open here so here is my story... my mother left my father when i was aprox 2 yrs... she went straight to another man had a baby and got married... he started to abuse me when i was about 4, i would be subjected to porn... adn told to keep the usual secret... when i started primary school i had a best friend and eventually around 7-8 and having sleep overs he asked me to practice with her ... about 9 years old they divorced and we moved to another state... he tryed to get custody
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sinann changed their mood to Good 5:20am
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June 5, 2009 2:35am
i am glad i have some place to go... even though we are in different timezones and maybe you are all too busy to take notice but i find just having …
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from the depths of despair
June 4, 2009 11:16pm
i have come here to get support for my shopping addiction and my depression, and to get some help and try to make myself feel better, i need to …
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Goal End Date is Sep 1, 09 83 days ago.Current Weight (KGs)85 -
Support Groups
Close Shopping Addiction
I have a shopping addiction, and a self esteem complex, i have jeopardized my family, i have lied to my partner and spent all his money..., this has been for 10 yrs,
Treatments
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionto seek support and make friends
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Too Soon to Tell
- Zoloft Working / Worked
Open Sexual Abuse
i was abused for 4 years of my childhood... i have just realised it's not my fault
Treatments
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
Open Carpal Tunnel Syndrome
to support those who have carpal tunnel
Treatments
- Carpal Tunnel Release Surgery Working / Worked
- both hands have had the surgery, it has worked wonderfully however i quite often feel numbness in my middle finger tips
