Journal Entry for August 12, 2009
August 12, 2009 3:20pm
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mourningagain
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About Me
mourningagain
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About Me
I'm 47 years old. I'm a born again Christian. I'm a very positive free spirit. I'm brave and I don't need to control other people or my surroundings and I hate, I mean hate it when someone tries to control me! I just live and let live. Though I've gone through some really terrible things in my life I believe there is a reason I'm still here. That"s enough for today and I have hope for tomorrow that life is full of surprises. It will get better! I love the smell just before it rains. I love the smile of a baby and I love driving my car to the ocean while I play my favorite C.D. loud. I love family dinners on Sunday and I love spending time with my friends. I love my hair (Thanks mom ) and my eyes( Thanks Dad) I hate my weight and am always on one diet or another but I really love my heart. My compassion given to me from the school of hard knocks. I'm not what I'd like to be but I'm so much closer to it than I was 5 years ago. As long as we keep going and growing everything has got to get better.
I'm 47 years old. I'm a born again Christian. I'm a very positive free spirit. I'm brave and I don't need to control other people or my surroundings and I hate, I mean hate it when someone tries to control me! I just live and let live. Though I've gone through some really terrible things in my life I believe there is a reason I'm still here. That"s enough for today and I have hope for tomorrow that life is full of surprises. It will get better! I love the smell just before it rains. I love the smile
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Interests
I am a born again Christian. I love politics and I'm very involved in them. My family was always political and they passed their love of politics to me. I love weather especially storms. I love the mountains and waterfalls and seeing the sunrise or set over the ocean. I love photography and music of all kinds. I love animals and flowers. I love to travel and when I travel I usually visit a garden or aquarium or zoo if one is available. I enjoy hiking in national parks and canoeing or boating. I love movies and I really enjoy collecting books. I could spend hours in book stores or libraries and I own a lot of books, too many, but I'm alway's on the lookout for another one. I enjoy reading so much and I love computers. It's like having the library in your office. I love anything medical and I am forever adding to my knowledge of disease and the treatments or cures if available. I love creating beautiful things. I wouldn't call my self an artist just that I'm artistic and I create crafts for my own amazement and enjoyment. I love Life!
I am a born again Christian. I love politics and I'm very involved in them. My family was always political
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Today
July 26, 2009 7:19pm
Today was a good day. I invited a friend to go to church with me and then we went to my mom's for our famous Sunday dinner. I have 2 …
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Joy,
No you did not. We has brothers and sisters in Christ should not offend or even argue with each other. But we are sinful humans and you know that brothers and sisters may have an arguement but as a family they make up with each other. It is OK for you to say something bad about your family but if try it is natural to put up your gaurd. I learned this with my wif's family. She can do it but if I do it all heck will break loose.
Your brother in Christ - verses
M'r:13:3: And as he sat upon the mount of Olives over against the temple, Peter and James and John and Andrew asked him privately,
M'r:13:4: Tell us, when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign when all these things shall be fulfilled?
M'r:13:5: And Jesus answering them began to say, Take heed lest any man deceive you:
M'r:13:6: For many shall come in my name, saying, I am Christ; and shall deceive many.
M'r:13:7: And when ye shall hear of wars and rumours of wars, be ye not troubled: for such things must needs be; but the end shall not be yet.
M'r:13:8: For nation shall rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom: and there shall be earthquakes in divers places, and there shall be famines and troubles: these are the beginnings of sorrows.
M'r:13:9: But take heed to yourselves: for they shall deliver you up to councils; and in the synagogues ye shall be beaten: and ye shall be brought before rulers and kings for my sake, for a testimony against them.
M'r:13:10: And the gospel must first be published among all nations.
M'r:13:11: But when they shall lead you, and deliver you up, take no thought beforehand what ye shall speak, neither do ye premeditate: but whatsoever shall be given you in that hour, that speak ye: for it is not ye that speak, but the Holy Ghost.
M'r:13:12: Now the brother shall betray the brother to death, and the father the son; and children shall rise up against their parents, and shall cause them to be put to death.
M'r:13:13: And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.
M'r:13:14: But when ye shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, standing where it ought not, (let him that readeth understand,) then let them that be in Judaea flee to the mountains:
Ray of Sunshine
I hope that you have a great time.
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Hug
Sending hugs and i hope that you are doing well.
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Thank you for the support and friendship and i hope to give you the same.
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Sorry, meant to send to Roger.
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Support Groups
Close Depression
: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've a lot of relatives with major depression. I've battled depression since I was about 9. I had an uncle that year who blew his head off. About a year later I was sitting on my grandmothers couch coloring in my book. She was sitting beside me looking at what I was coloring and she got up and went down the hall. When she didn't come back I went to look for her. I found her hanging from her closet bar with a belt around her throat. I guess you could say I inherited my depression.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Helped me with coping skills,communication and assertivness
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Helps me calm down and feel less agitation and anxiety
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My family and friends have been my strength .
- Writing Working / Worked
- Putting my feelings down on paper helps me to deal with anger and sadness
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- I've been on a lot of medicines but this one has helped the most
Close Loneliness
My husband died about 5 months ago. I have family and friends. Even when I'm with my family or friends or I'm at church I still feel isolated. I feel alone. I'm hoping to find other people who know what I mean when I say this and can hopefully tell me what they have done to deal with it.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/SpouseTo learn to accept the death of my husband. To learn ways to cope with my loss.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- I seem to cry a lot these days. It helps when I feel overwelmed. Side effects seems to be a large puffs bill and very puffy eyes.
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- Keeping myself busy is a must for me. Too much time to think can get me into trouble. Distraction is one of my useful tools.
- Music Working / Worked
- When I'm really down and need a pick me up I play music really loud,usually in my car, so I can feel it surround me. It always brightens my mood.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I try to pray continually, To stay in touch with God while I go about my day.. After I meditate on God's word and pray for guidance I always feel better.
- Reading Working / Worked
- I read my Bible and I've purchased quite a few books on self inprovement and grief and 12 steps. I'm determined to get through this
- Remembering Working / Worked
- My husband was in photography. When I really miss him I take out his portfolios and he is there. His keen eye for life, his personality and his humor. I'm so grateful to have these memories.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I do have a sister and a daughter that I can talk to but I feel alone even when I'm with the rest of my family and friends
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- It's only been 4 months and people say only time can heal. I'm not sure time will heal this but I'm hopeful
Open Widows & Widowers
To deal with grief and learn to live and love again.
Treatments
- Grief Counseling Considering
