frustratedbutcurious's Journal

I've been feeling better lately. The psychotherapy is helping, and knowing that he is on the other side of the Atlantic is actually helping more than I thought it would. I still think about him more than I probably should, although I'm starting to get through more and more activities without him intruding on my thoughts.

I've switched off the DailyStrength daily updates and activity updates. I used to find them very comforting, and now I realise that I'm avoiding my email because when I see them I instantly think of him. In fact, I was in a very excited mood just now because I got a new book in the post, and then the daily email popped up, and my mood dropped like a stone.

I think the only way I'm going to be able to get over this is to make a clean break. None of my family or friends talk about him anymore, and if I mention his name nobody comments on it. The only indication that my parents even still think of him is that they still have a framed picture of the two of us (one of the only ones) up in their hallway. My best friend still has him on her facebook as a friend, but that's more for my benefit so she can keep tabs on what he's up to. She's very level-headed and kind, so she would only use it to warn me of something terrible.

All in all, it feels like it is time to move on. I doubt I will ever forget him though. :(