Panic888

Open Eating Disorders
Type: Anorexia

I have actually switched back and forth between anorexia and bulimia since the age of 12. It's the longest relationship I've ever been in, however toxic it may be.

Treatments

Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful

Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful

Residential Treatment Center Not Working

I was 3 days away from entering a residential treatment facility in Arizona in November of '05, but backed out at the last minute because of fear of the unknown.

Open Panic Attacks

Treatments

Klonopin Too Soon to Tell

Patience Not Working

Positive Thinking Not Working

Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell

Xanax Working / Worked

Zoloft Too Soon to Tell

Open Shyness

Treatments

DailyStrength Working / Worked

Pets Working / Worked

Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell

Socializing Working / Worked

Open Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)
Type: Trichotillomania

I started hair-pulling in 7th grade. I remember it vividly - it started innocently enough, just pulling split ends apart, and from there, it moved onto actually yanking strands of hair from my head. It was at its worst about 8 years ago, a concealed bald spot under my top layer. My hands still automatically go to my head when I'm anxious/nervous. Whether it's actual pulling or just twirling my hair, it somehow makes me feel better.

Open Hypochondria

It started at 4 when the heart murmur I was born with hadn't gone away, and my pediatrician sent me to the hospital for additional testing. Cue the terrifying phobia of ALL diseases that I still deal with to this day. You name it, I've had it (or so my messy brain tells me...)

Open Fitness Goals
Type: Maintain a workout schedule

To stay motivated to workout (whatever that entails) in a HEALTHY way, not the crazy, obsessive working out I've always done in the past due to my desire to lose as much weight as possible because of my ED's.

Treatments

Aerobics Working / Worked

I use Jackie Warner's "Workout" and it has honestly kicked my arse nine times over. I love it! I've never gotten a workout such as this before, and it makes me feel energized, really sweaty (like, REALLY), and proud of myself.

Dancing Somewhat Helpful

We'll go out to the sweaty nightclubs and rock out to our New Wave 80's jams...I don't know how much of a workout I actually get from it, but boy, does it ever FEEL like one.

Hiking Working / Worked

I haven't been in several years (it was an old boyfriend-thing) but when we would go (especially on the one "fourteener" I was taken on), it was invigorating. I'd like to go again, but I gave my hiking boots to the Goodwill in a Spring Cleaning haze a few years back; I don't know that Converse will cut it.

Running Somewhat Helpful

I LOATHE running with every ounce of my being...so while I saw SOME results, it was excruciatingly unbearable to continue with.