I consider myself to be a mum of two, although one of my beautiful boys died at 5 weeks old in April 09 of SIDS. My other little boy really lights up my life. I'm in an unhappy relationship at the moment but hope to change that.
I consider myself to be a mum of two, although one of my beautiful boys died at 5 weeks old in April 09 of SIDS. My other little boy really lights up my life. I'm in an unhappy relationship at the moment but hope to change that.
July 22, 2009 7:32pm
Hey I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, and I feel like I'm really at a crossroads in my life.Despite what happened to my little …
July 13, 2009 1:01pm
Hey everyone
I haven't updated in a while quite a bit has happened since then.
As you know from my journal,I made an attempt to leave my partner. …
July 9, 2009 3:40pm
Just another quick message to say thanks so much everyone for your support, thanks Coffeelady for your hug x
I've just made a memorial page …
June 29, 2009 6:27pm
I just wanted to write a quick note to all the people who have sent me lovely messages/hugs.
I am grateful to each and every one of you for your kind …
June 17, 2009 3:35am
Just a quick entry as my little boy is demanding attention.
I've finanlly had enough, and been tipped over the edge. I've made up my …
Thank you!! I feel like I am starting to get control back, and it feels wonderful!!
Hi. First of all, I want to say how sorry I am for the loss of your beautiful baby boy. I just read your post on the SIDS board and wanted to tell you that yes, you did the right thing. My situation is a bit different but I had to take the same decision: my twins were born 15 weeks early and while my daughter died after 40 min, my son was for 2 days in the NICU. In the end, he was bleeding into his brain and the doctors told us that he would be a complete vegetable if he survived it. For the sake of his life, we took him off life support and he fell asleep for ever in my arms. It hurts more than anything, but we did the most beautiful and selfless thing for our babies. You are in my thoughts.
How are you doing?
I hope you are ok. I haven't heard form you in quite a while. Please let me know how you're doing.
Your very welcome. I am new to this site and I have read through your journal and I think you are an incredibly strong woman and I wish you all the luck you deserve. Keep your head up and know you not alone. I hope you had a good day.
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Just after a feed, when we were both asleep, I realised my little boy was not breathing and had gone grey and floppy. I called an ambulance and started CPR but he didnt respond. The paramedics were there within 90 sec but they could not ressucitate him. In hospital, after being deprived of oxygen for 30 mins he was eventually put on a ventilator. But the damage done to his brain was so severe he would never recover and we had to make the painful decision to turn off his life support machine.
I have ADHD. I have used ritalin, strattera and dexedrine in the past; but am not receiving any treatment for it at the moment although it still has a huge effect on my life.
I had a heroin habit for four years. I stopped using heroin after going on a methadone script, which I am still on.
I was in a violent and abusive relationship with a much older man for three years. stupidly, straight after i left him, i went straight into the arms of another man who is turning out to also be abusive.
Although it might seem strange me being here as I am an ex addict, I am in a relationship with a heroin addict/alcoholic which is taking everything out of me.
I have had two kids in the past eighteen months and am still 20lbs heavier than I was pre-child. I know it may sound shallow and vain to focus on my weight and fitness after losing a child but it's really helping me to focus my mind on a goal like this.
