Jessyca21's Journal

I am sooo excited. Since I had Braydon I've only been able to hold him maybe 10 times. After he'd been at the hospital with me for a couple hours, the Ped. Nurse came in to check on him and noticed he had an 'irregular heartbeat'. So she took him away to be check on by the doctor on call, from there they came to my room and told me there were going to have to take him to another hospital because the one i delivered at did not have a NICU (What kind of hospital that had L&D Does NOT have a NICU?). Anyway, I had to stay in the hospital that entire time without seeing my baby, it was so hard. Then I was sent home without him, which was even harder. Its like you go through all that work and you leave empty handed.

They had him on a haulter moniter to check his heart the first 24 hours he was there, and yet they still haven't got the results back because the normal doctor just suddenly left town. So all i can do is wait for them to get the results back, go see him when i can, and listen to them tell me about how well he's doing. At first they said his heart was missing beats and slowing down when he slept, but after a day or two it evened out. So thats really good news, he's also eating a good bit, last night he ate 110cc's! I was like "whoa" and he's gained 4oz (= I called today and they said there's a chance if they get the results in that he'll be able to come home today or tomorrow. I'm so excited! I miss my son sooo much. It's so crazy how when the first time you meet your baby it's like automatic emotions. You just know that its your job to protect and care for this little human being. And not being able to see him all the time is doing a job on me, I've been having trouble sleeping and waking up every 3 hours. Ughh I'm just ready to see my little man!