Jessyca21's Journal

As the days keep going by,

the more scared I get. I try to tell myself it's going to be okay,

but it doesnt seem to stick. I stayed up until 4am crying to Josh

about how I was so scared i was going to die in labor. All he could say

was "How many people do you know that die during labor anymore?"

But it doesn't help. I have so many fears of the epidural and the pain.

It's so scary because my Mom had a horrible labor, she lost a lot of blood after i

was born and needed a transfusion. But that was 21 years ago, and she didn't have

really good prenatal care since she didn't know she was pregnant with me until

she was 5 months a long. Medical Science has changed so much since then, but

I'm still so scared. I just expected this whole pregnancy thing to go by sooooo slow

but it seems like just yesterday I was in a stall at Walmart looking at the little plus sign

on an EPT and only being 4 days late.