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writerchick11 
11:33am, November 13, 2009
i love who i am. i do. i am a loving person. i make people laugh. im terribly passionate. and more. but i just feel like shit about myself. all i can think about is how badly i want someone to love me. i get jealous of the fake love people in movies have to the point that i cry. how pathetic is that?! i know they are acting. but i want so badly to feel that. the kind of love thats in love songs. i am so passionate. my mom once told me i feel too much. i cant help it. and it kills me. i hate it so much. and i have been crying so much because of it lately. i hate that i am like this. i wish i could just live without it bothering me. but it hurts. i know i keep whining about this, and it must get old, but its killing me. i want it to stop. i hate feeling like this. i hate it.
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I like most people have laid in bed and wanted to be held so badly, I started crying. You know that whole you can't love someone until you love yourself? You might know the meaning but I didn't until I went through it. When you don't love yourself and get into a relationship you will always dought his intentions.
151
You have to remind yourself of things you like about yourself, guys love confidence. You deserve love & you'll find it. Not everyone in a relationship is in love.
151
I'm sorry. I know how it feels to hurt like that. I can totally relate. You're not whining at all and it's not pathetic to feel that way. One time I was watching Kate & Leopold and I had to quit watching it because it made me so depressed. I mean it's a happy movie and it's supposed to make you feel good but it made me feel so alone and unwanted. I agree with 151 about loving yourself first but it's just so hard. You are an amazing person and you deserve all the love and happiness of the world!
ShelbyLV
I agree with 151 and ShelbyLV. But I am also an extremely passionate, affectionate and romantic person. And yeah sometimes our emotions can be overwhelming. You should listen to the song killing me softly by the Fugees. It will probably let you see how there are other people that feel as intensely as you do. You are not alone and I know that is a Michael Jackson song but I mean it. I'm here with you though your faraway I am here to stay. Don't be upset because you are different from some of the people you are around everyday. Remember the world is much bigger than your surroundings. You may seem strange there but in reality you aren't strange there are a lot of people that share your thoughts passions and feelings. My whole life my family told me I was a drama queen. I can be but little did they know that I was Bipolar and an artist. You would think I was adopted because of how different I am from my sister and brother. And we all have the same mother and father. I use to feel bad about myself and like I didn't really fit in anywhere not even in my own family. You have to get past all the lies about yourself. Then you can love and accept yourself for who you really are. You have to believe the good things about yourself. You deserve to be happy and loved but you have to believe that you are worthy of love and happiness. And once you do then you will really have them. Oh it's typical girl fantasy to want a fairytale love that is only in the movies and te story books. Shoot I do even though I have real love. You should see how many romance novels I read. I am even writing one. Maybe you should try writing your own romance novel expressing all of your passion and ideal love. Create your dream mate and your dream self and let yourself go and have a ball.Take care best of luck to you
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