inmorghell's Journal

I can't take this anymore
this is too much for me
the pressure, the pain IS KILLING ME.....
this constant crawling feeling
is driving me mad,
taking away ANY shred
of sanity I ever had

They try to tell me I'm delusional
that stress is causing my skin to crawl

but wait a minute
I've had much more stress than this in my life
and I never felt the agony

I feel now all the time

Why are they turning their backs on me
Why can't they see

I wouldn't recognize the problem

if I was really crazy

When you're crazy you think it's normal

to feel the way you feel

oblivious to how bad the doctors

are makin you feel

They don't know the damage they're doing
diagnosing me with DOP
To my reputation as a patient
now doctors turn their backs on me
So called professionals forget
one little thing
that can make a big difference
on whether I live or bleed
They forget I have no prior psychiatric history
but they just ignore that while HIPOCRITICALLY judging me
Delusions of Paracytosis is just a cop-out they use
to enable this disease
to take over me and ruin my life for good

Ignorant judgemental so called professionals
should go back to school

to prepare to deal with the pandemic

that's infected me and you

Maybe they would learn something new-

little something I learned in nursing school

Before it spreads to more areas

that DOP is a subset of schizophrenia

Everyday I sit here wasting away
my body, my mind and even my soul
down to my personality
I'm spinning out of control

I don't know where this came from
But I'm infected everywhere
my brain, my spine, even my beautiful f*!#$@g hair
taken over by foreign invadors unknown to man
so foreign the fibers can't even be recognized in a lab

Angry at the world
there's no cure for me
gotta try to get back to the woman I used to be

Man made diseas

has made us government guinea pigs
Constantly pushed to our limits
until we've lost our will to live

I have nothing to look forward to
as my heart grows colder
screaming at me
reminding me my life is over

Why are the infected ignored
left to our own devices
in a desperate search for a cure
while thousands suffer
paying ultimate prices?

Our families and livlihood don't exist anymore
because we're too sick to function
Because we're f*&$#!g ignored

No trust in doctors
no hope for life
Now I know what its like to feel
raped of my pride, dignity and rights
I've never known a disease
with symptoms like this
they absolutely make no sense
just listen to my list

Insomnia, brain fog, tremors, fatigue
Anhedonia, paranoia, sometimes
it's hard to breathe

Heart problems, lung problems
joint and general pain
All this itching and crawling
driving me insane

Lesions spewing fibers are the hallmark of the disease
My hair is falling out, losing function of my kidneys

It hurts agonizingly when I stand
and it makes me think of how I once held the world in my hands
I was sound, happy, healthy, and well adjusted
Now I'm a waste of space looking forward to nothing

And I think of my health
when it's difficult to swallow
I think how fast I'll fade away
once my mind grows hollow

Parasite infested for Morgellons to feed
My body producing plastic
nano bugs suck the life out of me

That's only a few of the symptoms

brought on by this disease

I even had an epiphany

realizing that my mother had it

and suffered silently

I know this because when I envision

her I see me

the highest cause of death at this point

is suicide

the mental anguish is giving us

nothing but suicide to think about

while your suffering alone every and all night

I don't understand why this illness
is so hard to believe
but with what I've been through
I can say I've seen everything

and nothing surprises me

If the government can bring down towers

right under our noses
using us as puppets
because they see us as nothings
 
For all you non believers
with your judgement and mockery
You'll live your worst nightmare
When it's infected your family
Who's going to help you?
Who will you cry to then?
Because people won't forget
how you turned your backs on them then

One day you'll experience the pain and dispair
Remember when we suffered and you didn't care?
You will realize the thousands of people that needed your help
won't be so forgiving,
tell you "figure it out yourself"

Remember I'm someone's child, spouse, and mother
if I can get this you can too
No discrimination here
then you'll see you're screwed and doomed

and living in constant fear.

I'm standing up for my people
The ones like me
especially the babies that
can't express their feelings

Expose the Illuminati run New World Order
The chemtrail spraying government
that pretends to care but really doesn't
It's all about the plan for depopulation
new word for Eugenics
and we're the target of their sick
and evil mission

As I slide further into the abyss

we call the rabbit hole

I realize I need to fight for my life

because not standing up for myself

is helping them implement their plan

to destroy all the lives they can

I realize sitting idly by just helps

contribute to this
AMERICAN GENOCIDE

HUMAN GENOCIDE AS A MATTER OF FACT
BECAUSE MORGELLONS IS WORLDWIDE
AND SPREADING FAST

we're helping destroy our nation
doing nothing about it
letting all OUR children down
REMEMBER there's no future without them

So we need to stand together
so that we can live to tell
our children's children
Of how we stopped
the extinction of ourselves

Numbers matter
in times like these
So let's get to work
So that we can be free

of this disease