Alison868's Journal

I have gotten too far away from DailyStrength with all the busyness of daily life.  I am doing okay and some days are pretty good and other days are just so heavy with sadness.  I have so many moments of not being able to believe this is real.  I miss my husband so much.  I have been working just part-time since this tragedy and last week I resigned completely.  I am going to take some much-needed time for myself.  My work is mentally and emotionally draining and I was already so burned out before my husband died.  I feel very at peace with this decision.  I just wish I could turn back the hands of time.  There are so many things I would do differently, but there would be no guarantee of adifferent outcome.  It's so hard to adjust to your husband's suicide and most every waking moment is consumed by thoughts of him.  It's exhausting and inescapable.  I long for the day when this will not hurt anymore.  Anna and I are going to Florida to visit my family and hopefully I'll have a great time.