Niffer64's Journal

Today I had what is becoming my standard favorite for breakfast...Fiber 1 cereal, mixed berries and soy milk. Yesterday I had started a crockpot meal to cook thru the night...pork roast, carrots and onions. Went to the beach, home a little before noon, set to peeling potatoes for mashing. Heard Mike (hubby) come in, heard that oh-so-distinctive rustle and without thinking hollered from the kitchen "WHAT ARE YOU EATING???" Yes, accusatory, irritated. His reply, "CHIPS!" I took a quieting breath and thought, my self-improvement goals are mine, not his. He certainly can bring in some chips once in a while, especially since it's probably a small bag from the gas station...he'll eat them all, and that will be that...no temptation for me, not a problem. Phew, so I let it go. Set the potatoes to boil, came to my recliner where I use my laptop, and what do you guess was sitting within reach on my end table? Chili cheese corn chips, one of my very favorite junkfood items. I didn't yell, but said, "What are those chips doing there?" He said, well, they're for you if you want, or Nathan...or I'll eat them myself sometime. Again, it was a smaller bag. And he went onto say that the snacks were on sale...two bags/two bucks. I looked away from the chips and let it go, not sure if I would end up eating them, screaming, or what, but just for the moment thinking, I will at least get through this nice meal I'm cooking, then see how I'm feeling. Anyway, Nathan in the meantime came down, saw the chips, and ate them. This isn't so great...Nathan is overweight, has lost 65 pounds and I hate to see him eat the crap. But to keep in perspective, since I took over the shopping the end of May, these are the first chips that've been in the house, so maybe not such a terrible deal. Anyway, I can say...I didn't grab up that bag myself when I certainly could have, and am okay with that.

Well, dinner came together shortly after that, and oh my goodness was it delicious. No seconds, but yes a generous plate for round one. It tasted great, filled me up for hours and hours. In fact, just before getting on line tonight I noted the time, just past 7pm, and realized I hadn't eaten since then...about 6 hours ago. So I had a green apple with a little peanut butter, another favorite snack of mine. Am relieved to think that I'm getting past that crazy hunger we've talked about that for me is such a frantic, horrible feeling to try and ignore.

So I've almost made it through Sunday. I gave myself permission to just enjoy today, no exercising (but did walk a good bit at the beach). Tomorrow is a new day, and I'll bring in the exercise again.