NDifferent's Journal

Really really really trying NOT to be so upset. So many people can blow off certain situations. Right now, because everything keeps snowballing, I can not do that. It's just compounding. The whole damn situation just keeps getting worse. What the hell! It seemed like just for the briefest of moments (in this case at least 1 week) things were looking up, going well, turning around. How the hell did it happen? I mean, god! It shouldn't have happened! There is no logical reason why it did happen. There is no fucking excuse as to why it happened. Maybe I just need to reevaluate everything about me and myself. Maybe I just can't do what i think i can. You know there is a saying that you can do anything you put your mind to, I am seriously having my doubts about that. Desire is not nearly enough. Motivation is not nearly enough. I am beginning to believe that there are some things some people will never be able to do, no matter how hard they try, no matter how badly they want it, they just can't do it or they can't have it. That saying is not necessarily true.