pookie4life's Journal

why does it have to hurt me sooo much.... i have wonderful friends.... wonderful family...  i know i should be happy... and i try to be happy... but everytime i try and finally think that im happy... someone or something knocks me down... i try so ahrd to be there for everyone else... who is there for me? no one... im the shoulder every one crys on... where is my shoulder? where is my knight in shinning armor?? where is my true love? everyone i know has found someone and is completely and truly happy with their loved one... where is my loved one? why does the only guy i like not want to date me? what is wrong with me that i push guys away? am i ment to be alone forever???? i guess so.... well i better get used to it... becuz the one guy i loved... i pushed him and i will never have him back... not even as a friend... it sucks... i actually find myself missing him... gah... this whole thing was supposed to be about life... and its turned into about my love life... blargh...