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TimBlodgett 
Well, I had a rough go this past month. About the 12th I had to make the decision to go into the hospital. The voices became taunting, and edged me on to kill myself. For my own safety I had to go somewhere where I would be safe.
I was medicated and for the first time, restrained in the hospital. My psych wasn't impressed with the restraints when he came in to see me, but helped me understand it was so I couldnt hurt myself.
I spent 15 days in the hospital this time. Not a long visit by any means but long enough to develop a routine. Talking to the nurses and the ward staff, speaking to other patients and going about my daily business.
However coming out I feel like my comfortable world has been flipped upside down. Now I cant seem to readjust to my old routine. Figures.
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God that is hell. :hugs: I know about the taunting voices. I was lucky mine are 100% controlled by my meds & haven't came back since. I am scared to death though if they come back. I will never ever go off meds because of this.
amalzahir
Sorry I kind of appeared out of nowhere - I found you from the schz board and looked at your profile and found this entry & wanted to respond. Hope you don't mind. I don't think we ever get over things like this, or maybe it just takes a long time. When mine happened in December I am still not over it. It leaves its marks. We learn to move on, but the memory is still there, y'know? I don't know many who understand this or where I am coming from. It will get easier. Just gotta keep your chin up & know you are a fighter.
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