OxyAnnie's Journal

This has been a very long day even though I took two naps and initially went to bed early.  I'm wide awake here now in the middle of the night but it's been so nice to come here and find support.  Having smoked for so many years and learning to do just about everything with a cigarette in my hand or in an ashtray nearby, everything has the potential to be a trigger for me.  I'm finding few distractions.  On the contrary, things that I previously ...  (was previously just yesterday?) ... enjoyed doing have been difficult because of my lack of concentration.   There are things I could have done today that I didn't and I didn't stick to my plan when it came to exercise and routine but I'm here tonight to reflect, take notes, and plan for tomorrow. 

Another thing I didn't do, interestingly enough, is tell my husband that today was going to be my Quit Day.   He is normally very supportive of anything I do but he's also one of those people who can smoke or not without quitting ever being an issue.  He doesn't really understand the addiction and I guess subconsciously I was trying to protect myself from any disappointment if I didn't succeed.  What I was thinking was that I'd just wait until he noticed.  Unfortunately, what he noticed was that I was out of cigarettes and he came home tonight with a fresh new carton.   

 ::sigh::   Oh well, we live and learn.    And tomorrow is Day Two!