Journal

This weekend has been a weekend! My son's party was Saturday and it was nice, the cake was awesome!! Anyhow, I may have gotten 2 pictures of him smiling the whole day but when I reviewed the pictures at home, such sadness in his eyes. I took my nephew (7 years old) with me b/c my sister's friend's grandpa died but before I did, I had a talk with my son about behavior and etc. Anyhow, it was terrible. He was so mean and nasty to my nephew this weekend. I ended up taking him home first thing this morning. My sister understood but still it's unfair that my son's behavior is so bad.

I've came up with some ideas, after talking to the counselor Friday and reading the "Explosive disorder" book. I'm really hoping it works. For everything good behavior he does and chores he'll get minutes toward playing is PS2 and I also decided to do it with my daughter too and give her minutes more to her phone. I'm soooooooo praying this works and cuts out some of the fighting between the two of them and the outburst with him. 

It's been a very stressful week. I'm so tired from working all day, so much to do there. Then doctor's appointments it seems everyday. He went to his pyschologist today and he gave me some great ideas. Meanwhile, I called the insurance company to change doctors; which I am hoping will be a blessing. Cheerleading is causing me grief too, they've ordered the wrong size and now I'm expected to fix this situation. I emailed them today just requesting my money back. They need to get their act together. Son's birthday was yesterday. He's 8 years old and yesterday was a good day and we have another good day. He did have 2 outburst that I managed to get under control, so that is great. Hope it last.

My head has been hurting so much lately. Anyhow, his party is Saturday and I ordered him this awesome cake, he is just going to love it! 

Hurry up Friday... I'm tired. 

I am so frustrated with the doctors. I mean, everytime someone recommends me here and there, so now son is going everywhere and seeing everybody and it just seems like I keep hearing the same crap. Ummm, if that was the case,  I could have just stuck to one! Anyhow, another day at the docs all day, then EKG now the pysch. doesn't want to do her job and now I am stuck relying on my doctor who will NOT return phone calls. So then called insurance company and they said the pysche could do it, call her back and OHHHH NOOOO, now that I told her she could do it, she won't! It is maddening. I am so freaking fed up with docs and it all.

Give my son choices...yeah that's going to work for sure, right? WRONG. I won't to scream and pull my hair out. It's not like I'm not screaming for someone to help us, I'm going everywhere and anywhere I can for it, but it's doing no good.