hurting, breaking - FM group x-post
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carebear09 
10:25pm, September 12, 2009
I'm feeling really bad today. My parents got into another fight; sometimes I just wish they would get a divorce. I have also started pulling my hair daily to deal with the stress and all the crap I'm going through. I have also started to pull out my eyelashes and my eyebrows.
I'm also angry because my mom might have MS and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it. I feel like I have to be strong and hold the family together; I really just want to fall apart and cry until I can't anymore.
I'm upset because I feel so fat and ugly; and I use food as a drug to comfort myself.
I'm upset because I know i'll never measure up to my brother; everyday I hear my parents tell my brother how proud they are of him. Do you know how nice it would be to hear that from them?
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carebearim so sorry that you going thru this hun i be praying for you tonight just hang in there and stuff. im sorry what what you mom might have to. plz dont feel like that about ya self i feel alot like that fat and ugly and i eat when i get angry and nervous and so on. were here for you.. huggg and get some rest ang
angelina1982
Venting is good. Though, we may not be able to control the pain that surrounds us. It doesn't help to place more pain upon ourselves. As depressed as we may become, we cannot be accountable for the actions of others, and must realize our own limitations of what we can only do.
We know, when we are in our downs we may go back to habits of self-destruction or putdowns. Working our own ways to get better habits to release our tension is our only means. Heart to heart, take care!
it2speaks
So glad you joined us. I sure do understand the thing about using food for comfort and hearing constantly how much a different sibling means. It really does get hard to take sometimes, but there are times we simply have to begin thinking about ourselves and our own needs. Only you can decide when that time is in your life. Sure hope all of us here can help. In the meantime, know that you have our love and understanding.
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