shelbyton's Journal

so I got a phone call today from a collection agency for an account on my husband. She was threatening to serve us and then start garnishing wages. This is for medical stuff and I have dealt with them before, so I started diging through reciepts and trying to figure out what it is. So I called and found out it was from 2006 and 2007, I had paid I thought all past bills in 2008. Well I found a debit for $1000 in 2008 and brought it in, turns out that was for one of my bills and we never got a notice for the others ones either from the doctor or the collection agency, they just got our new address and phone number this month. So needless to say I was freaking out and angry and got so stressed out I feel sore and tired. I am getting my student loan money in a couple days so there goes most of that which I had other plans for. I don't know is it just me or everytime you get extra money something comes up, and it's like the collection agents know it. This made me so mad and frustrated because for the longest time I kept my husbands credit report and bills paid religiously and made sure there were no outstanding bills for him. This would have been paid along time ago if I had known.

Well I am really letting my stress get to me today, being short with the kids and not having any energy for things. I am also upset that my husband decided to stay up later today(he works nights) so he can do things even though he was supposed to pick up the kids from school and have them until he goes to work. Now I do not get my alone time and go to my tuesday night meeting which I really need today. He also came over this morning to watch the 2 younger boys while I dealt with the bill, but put the baby to bed at 10 in the morning. I wait and give him a nap while my 5 year old is in afternoon kindergarten so I can get things done around the house and have some peace time. It just makes me mad because he does not respect my time or schedule, it's all about his needs.

I am trying to think about how I feel right now and where it could possibly lead me. Times like these is when I really want to run to the casino. To make things worse he is taking the kids tommorow night instead overnight, so I will have all this time and no meetings to attend. I guess I could find a new one, or just work on relaxation and things that are good for my being. I know this can turn into a trigger and I am desperate to make sure it will not. Today I will not gamble today I be good to myself. I will feel better with time just breathe and let it go, breathe and let it go.

On a bright note we are adopting 2 kitties (2 yrs old) from a safehaven, had the home visit yesterday and they will bring them over on sunday. I am so excited I have not had a cat in years, they are brother and sister and both were born with only three legs. So thats what I can do tommorow go shopping for cat stuff and set up for them.