ThatOneGurl's Journal

For the most part I havent done anything really...

Hard to think positive, but I try...

  I never had actual parents... My mom was busy doing her own thing working to support us and when my step dad got ill, she took care of him...  My dad isnt really in my life... I feel like I missed an important part of my life... I understand you have your dad at all but its different because Im a girl and theres the whole father daughter relationship and him being a good model so I will know what to look for in a guy.. but I dont.. All the guys I have chosen all have some sort of mental and emotional problem whether or not they have realized it. Everyone has issues, yes but thats not it
 Not for me... If I had a older guy model... I have two but one just moved away...

I just didnt have the love I wanted. And I see children who have and people my age with their moms or dad having the best time. Yeah they have their fights and stuff but at least they are together... I want it sooooo, I love it at Mama K's house all there is is love, such a positive living environment, God's present and all that good peaceful stuff.... I wish I had it sooooooo bad... I would give up everything to have pure, true love... As much as I have to wait I dont think I can... 

I am hurting so bad, counseling cant help or fix this....

I just dont know what to do...