Self Injury: Life
November 5, 2009 6:54am
For over 3 years, i've cut myself. It's been a long time since i could actually say that i was clean of it. I dont even really remember how …
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RiskLovingMe 
12:22am Yesterday
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About Me
RiskLovingMe
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About Me
i'm rebecca. im not a bad person. i've been through alot, but not all of it was my fault. i am hoping to leave self injury in my past and make myself a better future. i want to be a recreational therapist when im older. i tend to whine/complain alot and i am truly sorry about that! i'm deist and pragmatic agnostic. i want to be a success, and the only way to become that is through myself first. i listen to alot of different music. im half black. i LOVE making new frriends. but if you add me just to be nosy and aren't going to actually talk to me, please dont :) i love the friends that i have here!
i'm rebecca. im not a bad person. i've been through alot, but not all of it was my fault. i am hoping to leave self injury in my past and make myself a better future. i want to be a recreational therapist when im older. i tend to whine/complain alot and i am truly sorry about that! i'm deist and pragmatic agnostic. i want to be a success, and the only way to become that is through myself first. i listen to alot of different music. im half black. i LOVE making new frriends. but if you add me just
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Interests
turning my life around, music, marching band, reading, writing on here, making new friends.
turning my life around, music, marching band, reading, writing on here, making new friends.
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Recent Activity
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26 hugs received, 19 hugs given, 7 journal comments, 4 discussion posts, 3 journal posts
Yesterday
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RiskLovingMe and SurvivorStruggle are now friends 10:14pm
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RiskLovingMe and lonelyprayerwarrior are now friends 5:45pm
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RiskLovingMe gave belladeath a hug 10:48am
i miss you too! i hope youre doing alright. i feel like its been FOREVER since we last talked!…
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RiskLovingMe and Gregorynf are now friends 10:47am
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RiskLovingMe changed their mood to OK 12:22am
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Journal
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just small journal
November 3, 2009 7:19am
so so far today, im doing well. yesterday was mostly really good, except for one part. and also for the fact that something i have until now pushed …
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damn sleepless nights!
November 2, 2009 5:55am
ok SO. it's well past 5am. i have STILL not gotten to sleep yet. and going to sleep now would be completely pointless. what good is half an hour …
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it's SUPER DUPER SONIC!
October 31, 2009 1:37am
struggled all day with svetlana (to new friends who don't know, she is my alter personality) she's taken control several times and has really …
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
Drawing crimson lines, on a canvas once blank, etched memories of broken yesterdays, in a world of black. Momentary numbness provides temporary peace.
Treatments
- Red Marker Not Working
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Working / Worked
Close Multiple Personalities
Staring out at the darkness like a lunatic. Who would you rather have...Me, me, or me? Choose wisely or face the consequences.
Open Family Issues
My family is really ironically hypocritical and comically tragic in every sense of the way. And on most good days I sit here and wonder; Am I really related to the others?
Treatments
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Those dark memories still haunt my brain. And still I feel I'm the one to blame...
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionFull of anger and sadness, it's tearing her apart. She tries not to show it, but it's killing her heart.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Bruises on my arms, legs and face. Was ripped from within, and that was just my case.
Treatments
Open Sexual Abuse
I will never be able to explain your actions or say what your did was right. I will never be able to forgive you. And I will now act like I have.
Treatments
Open Pet Bereavement
How did one like me deserve a friend who wanted just to serve? What was there that made her love me, with nobody else above me? When I looked into her eyes, never did she criticize, never did she hold a grudge, never did she try to judge...
Open Bullying
Knock me down once; ok. Knock me down twice; stay away. Knock me down a third time; it's just no use. Knock me down a forth time; i've given in to your abuse.
Open Bipolar Disorder
Yesterday I was ecstatic; today I'm drowning in tears. Tomorrow I'll be smiling; the next day a mystery to the world...
Open Shyness
How do I get this confidence? I know I can't achieve it by myself. But I'm too shy to ask for help...
Open Teen Sexuality
Pansexuality; The true meaning of completely unconditional love.
Open Weight Loss For Teens
This weight I'm carrying slows me way down. It makes me feel like a failure. And now i cry, without a sound...
Open Anxiety
Heartbeat racing, Crying fear, Hunger fleeting, Confusion near.
Open Stress Management
Every circumstance brings stress. And when you let it in, it won't leave. Stress is in love with me.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
Odd numbers? No, even ones! Any order? No, prioritized! Anyplace? No, here!
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a FriendYou were a wonderful person and loved by all. You will be missed by many and i hope you are now at peace.
Open Phobia
I’ll hide here in cowardice, till I have to leave. That’s not a lie. The bars are made of my fear.
Open Codependency
I'm stuck to you. Like rubber to glue. You're the light of my life, but will you be ripped from me one day?
Open Coming Out
I am me. I am not ashamed to reach out and say "IM NOT STRAIGHT!" but will i do it? Will i tell the world?
Open Multiple Sclerosis (MS)
Type: Relapsing-remitting MSMy aunt has this.
Open Body Modification
A piercing here, a piercing there. The more piercings, the better!
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