ryan14's Journal

hell day sucked . i was so nerveous i could have passed out . we got in the parking lot and wanted mom to find the closest place to park. . we went in and i had lots of people looking at me and the way i was .  i can only guess how red my face was . i wanted to fade away like a ghost but it never happened . oh well . i could dream couldent i ?  mom spent just over $200 on jeans that would fit me .  mom had me try on all of them so she knew they would fit which was embarrasing . i know the lady working there knew what i had on i know because at walmart you can only take a few things into the dressing rooms at a time . as i went in the dressing room i could hear my mom and this lady whispering but couldent hear most of what she said . but i know she was telling her about why we had a lot of jeans .  i kept the last pair on because i wasnt going to walk around with the  shorts i had on . no way , wasnt going to happen . i could still hear the plastic of my disposable and some of the people that seen me earlier from walking into the store kept looking at me and looking down when they  thought i wasnt aware of them looking . i thought about asking them what their problem was but knowing my parents , i would have gotten in trouble if  talk to adults in a rude way so i ate my pride and kept going . i honestly never realized i was even wet until we just hit the exit doors . i was sooo glad when we left that it felt like 100 lbs was lifted  off my chest . i dread the next time we have to buy jeans .