injury to insult, too alive to care =)
June 21, 2009 10:39pm
Three days of hearing Jehovah's servants talk about the end of this system, and how we can make it through while making Him happy seems to have …
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OneLastStand
10:34pm, June 21, 2009
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Ever hear the phrase "nice guys finish last"? Well im thinking thats me. I'm Jordan everyone, thats all.. I wish I could be everyones savior but I cant hardly save myself. Shy, but infinitely loyal, and want just once chance to be happy. Just one...
Ever hear the phrase "nice guys finish last"? Well im thinking thats me. I'm Jordan everyone, thats all.. I wish I could be everyones savior but I cant hardly save myself. Shy, but infinitely loyal, and want just once chance to be happy. Just one...
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To My Dearly Beloved...
June 12, 2009 12:22am
Robyn Sawatski,
I helped someone today. Never even thought that I would when I woke up this morning, but it happened.
There was one of my good …
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Nothing to say
June 8, 2009 7:07pm
Time goes on, the pain seems to subside. All but the husk and the hush.
Nothing stands calm though, all is dead..
Like looking into a forest of burnt …
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HOLYFCKINGSHITE
June 1, 2009 11:25pm
You know... Despite the fact the fact that its been two weeks... it hurts to know your already someone elses...
Funny how it seems to undo …
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in my experience, drugs & alcohol may act as bandaids but they're ultimately no match for the power of this addiction. and then you end up with TWO monkeys on your back instead of one. it's easy to learn about this addiction, much harder to work on it. do you have anyone professional helping you?
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i kno u dnt kno me but you'll achieve ur goal.. its only a matter of time.. =)
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Close Self-Injury
Blegh... There are so many things worse than this.. But this has happened too many times.. Too much time wasted.. Too much of my soul given away.
Treatments
- Writing Not Working
- Used to work fine... But now the fact that I can no longer concentrate causes any attempt to alleviate stress fail miserably... I dont understand it...
Close Migraine Headaches
Treatments
- Aspirin Not Working
- Got too used to..
- Caffeine Working / Worked
- Works pretty well most of the time... but when not used, causes worse migraines. Also accessibly causes extreme anxiety attacks.
- Excedrin Somewhat Helpful
- Takes off the edge long enough to sleep it off.
- Tylenol Not Working
- long since tolerated.
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
Was told it was the best way to go, to wait till marriage. As time went on it became more of a quest to find someone who could be loyal enough to earn.
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
Meeting people... is extremely hard. Especially with the opposite sex. Talking to people gets easier with time... I live in my room all day unless working.. =s
Open Infidelity
Too many times... too many times... Every girl since 13 till... now. With exception to the last girl. She was the nice.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Somewhat Helpful
- It was helpful if they wanted to stay. More than often they cheat if they want to go.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionFrom the age of ten till... well... more current times. Last doctor categorized me as "severe" on his little sheet...
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- hah... no
- Lexapro Not Working
- Nope
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Being around friends who were all bubbly and happy seemed to help. probably why i still try to emulate that today...
- Prozac Considering
- Doctor suggested... but i know what they does to guys.
- Psychotherapy Considering
- Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- They try so hard... i think sometimes the thought of their pain is all that holds me back.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- didnt
- Writing Working / Worked
- Wish it still worked today... used to be the only escape.
Open Codependency
If only... If only she were here... everything could be okay again. it feels like more of a treatment than a deficiency. There is no treatment for me yet.. just another try. Can forgive the worst, and not lose hope. But the loss is too much.
Open Anxiety
Sigh... just too much to be able to breath. Dont know what to do yet.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Meditation Considering
- I need to start this....
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
Open Financial Challenges
Finished highschool and knew i wasnt cut out for the world but went out anyway... I live sharing a rented house with 4 other guys and still find it hard to cope... stupic econ.
Treatments
- Budgeting Working / Worked
- Earn Money Working / Worked
- Holding a Garage Sale Working / Worked
Open Jealousy
oho... no... no im not even going to say... Probably says enough to admit. And its always a first confession
Open Shyness
Being shy pretty much holds me back from attaining much of what other people have easily.. jobs, friends... asking for help... Yeah
Treatments
- Self-esteem Somewhat Helpful
- can turn bad though... too much cockiness
- Singing Somewhat Helpful
Open Homelessness
I was once homeless. I wish to help others. And stay away from this conclusion.
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