Daddysmonkey2's Journal

A Cutters Hell

I'm screaming inside and out

I'm just looking for a way out

I stop for a moment to ask myself

why this

how did I end up here

why do I fight these battles

inside and out

day and night

of life or death

love or hate

to drownd in the pain

to feel the blade

to see the blood

the attachment it has all become

my greatest enemy and

my new best friend

I look to see how much of me it has taken over

and askmyself this time

will there ever be and end

how far will it go

and can i stay in control

I wish that i could explain it

that someone would know

to have a safe shelter

from this screate silent world of hell in which i live